Want or Ought...

I have been struggling lately. Wondering if I am choosing things that are too selfish. Where is the balance. I am too selfish to want to give all of my money, all of my time, everything to Christ and the things he calls me to, but I really don't want to hold back either. Is all really everything, should I not sleep, should my family not eat, what about having some fun (My family has been having a great time spending time together at the Lake of the Ozarks.) , how much is right? So what is everything??? At the same time I don't feel like God is telling me I am holding anything back.

I kind of think it is a question of weather I do the things I do out of 'want to' or 'ought to'. I definitely have been giving more to my family lately (and it's been 'want to') than I have to church, and feels kind of wrong, though I know it is not. The fact is because I am a task oriented kind of person, it doesn't always feel as satisfying because with family there is no task to complete. So I kind of feel like I 'ought to' be doing more tasks at/for 'church' and 'God'.

My kids just started 2nd and 7th grades wow. We have gone to the back-to-school nights the last two weeks. Wow middle school would be scary, and I am supposed to be an adult , I can't imagine for my 12 year old daughter... I can't believe how much more work it is going to be. Speaking of being an adult, I just had a birthday, I am glad to be alive!